Writing while thinking
Writing while thinking is pretty awesome! I am sad that I did not realize this much sooner, I have been thinking about writing and not writing about thinking enough. This is a better medium for me to express my thoughts without any judgement from the society. But am I being judgement averse in a scared way. I remember watching a material on writing and how it was considered not fully intentional by socretes, did socretes warn against this exact confrontation of judgement?
On the other hand, I have never felt this present in a conversation, may be this blog is more or less a conversation with myself and I am most comfortable when it is me who I am talking to. I am the speaker and I am the observer, and only in this case Incan exactly know what is going on each other's mind.
This makes me think about judgement in a different light, I am not scared of being judged, I am scared of judging others. As a result I end up giving the same thoughts of mine to another person ending up with the feeling of judgement. What could I do to not have these thoughts, if I had grown up without even realizing what the word judgement means I could have gotten away from this trap, is it too late now? Or is this a question of trust in myself to do the right thing.
On one hand we have me who wants to be perceived, on the other the me who wants to exist. I understand the argument for both, the former wants to do good to others by thinking about them, the latter wants to exist by trusting in itself to do the right thing.
In the end I am confused.
With love,
~Tux